Need some advice

[usedandabused]

i dont know how all this happened but it did and very fast too, a guy i used to date a few yrs ago, re-entered my life, at a time when i was jus gettin on anti depressants and tryin to getmy life on track, he started comin over and spending time , then started spending nights over, and as we spent more time together, im not sure what happened or what i was thinking, i got so wrapped up in the attention and the affection, that i didnt want him to leave after a while, and he didnt want to go anywhere, well he lives the kind of lifestyle where he does ard drugs on a reg basis, and i started to join him, i tryed things i thought id never do, and in the meantime it made me want more, to the point where i didnt budget my money properly and spent half of my rent money on drugs, i ended up being evicted, and they guy who i was spending time with let me stay at his place (whihch by the way is with his parents) he introduced me to his family as his gf, spent x-mas with his family and had a great new years, but just after he told me that a couple people he knew from a few yrs ago had recently come in contact with him again, and he started texting all day and nigt, completly ignoring me and kinda being a jerk also. i knew something was up buti wanted proof and i looked at his phone when he wasnt around, looked at the texts, and to my suspisions, he was texting 2 diff girls, saying sexually explicit things. i dont want to confront him on te issue cuz i dont want him to know i looked at his phone, but i mean i feel totally fkn used, and the worst part is, that he thinks hes being sneaky and that i dont know, but i know and i still am staying with himcurrently, so i have had to sit with these emotions pent up for a few weeks, basically all my friends that i called upon for help when i gogt eviced all turned a cold shoulder towards me, and so i havent really had anyone to talk to. Today i found a new place to move too and its still not for a few days, and as soon as me and this guy got home tonight first thing he does is get on msn and tell one of the girls that im finally leaving. ive been feeling so unwanted and unloved and alone, that ive been thinking about just ending it all. im not sure what im looking for from this, its nice to write it all out but its still no the same as actually talking to someone, i dunno, i guess thanx for reading

[LetsTalk]

usedandabused:

Be thankful that you found a place and will be moving on very soon. In all honesty this guy has done nothing but sway you in the wrong direction. Your life was falling apart in his present. Now is your chance to pull it all together again. If you dont take the chance now I can assure you it will be a bumpy road with this loser. Hold your head high and do you.

Very good luck
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